I'm terrified. It's not as though it hasn't hit me yet, but realizing how extremely serious the consequences of my decision would be made me think twice. I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to feel obliged. I didn't want to use it as a form of ransom. I didn't want it to be another 'doing things just so you will change your mind' kind of thing. Why does everything seem so oblivious to you? Fine I kept it from you yes I did. But what would the diff be? It's not something that you want so I can't force it upon you. Neither do I want you to be obligated.

I went through this for the past month or so, hoping you would see the signs without me stating the obvious.

I dunno whether it's the right choice.

If I should regretfully sacrifice one life to successfully save another.